the divine

January 1, 2013

spiritual practice

The Cecil B. DeMille classic movie The Ten Commandments was on. I didn’t want to watch the TV, but as soon as the movie started I was captivated. This movie is shown every year around Christmas, and it has never held my interest. But this year was different. There was none of the typical cynicism towards a bible story. Where was my hard heart? Lynn Jericho talks about the twelve holy nights between Christmas Day and Epiphany, as being a time when our souls experience connection with spiritual forces where the veils between heaven and earth lift and powerful inner insight and growth are possible.” Maybe I am feeling it this year?

May the blessing of light be on you – light without and light within. May the blessed sunlight shine on you like a great peat fire, so that stranger and friend may come and warm himself at it. And may light shine out of the two eyes of you, like a candle set in the window of a house, bidding the wanderer come in out of the storm. And may the blessing of the rain be on you, may it beat upon your Spirit and wash it fair and clean, and leave there a shining pool where the blue of Heaven shines, and sometimes a star.
Excerpt from a Celtic blessing copied from

My openness was aided by my seven year-old son. He has a passion for story. He has always been a storyteller, a “yarner” as we say in Aboriginal culture. He will tell you a story that he thinks you want to hear, he’s always trying to make other people feel better. He loves doing scripture class at school. And this year a substitute teacher ignited a passion for fairy tales in him. We call him “Mr Movies” because he loves movies, and it was only yesterday that I linked his love of story with his love of movies. So, during the movie about Moses, my son told me what was going to happen next. It wasn’t spoilers because his passion filled the room.

One of my favourite moments of the movie, was when Moses’ wife said to him as he came down from the mountain with the ten commandments “the light of God is on your face”. This year, I have been pondering what the “Divine” is. This was prompted by a reading I received in an ecourse I did called “Wild Creative Heart”. A practitioner there named Tina van Leuven told me…

“You are a mystic, inspired by inspiration from the Divine and bringing about transformation in the service of others. The invitation is to review your definition of service… and to allow yourself to tap into the Divine love within yourself, to let yourself be infused by this love from deep within you, let it nurture and sustain you, and then, only then, to serve others…
It is as if you have come into this life to heal and transform the disappointments from many incarnations of being of service to God ( or rather the God program, the stories about God, rather than what you know the Truth of the Divine to be) and having cut yourself off from receiving Divine love. As if you have to give, give, give… and have somehow never been able to fully receive… which has the effect of building up (un)conscious resentment… towards God/Spirit/Source and anyone you have projected this onto.
And yet… as you allow yourself to receive the love from the Divine and let yourself be nurtured as you have nurtured others for aeons, you will be a living example to many to take care of their own connection to Source first and then take practical action in the world. Bringing awareness to the smallest details and finding the beauty within even the darkest places. What a gift…”

Oh my! That is me! Everything I do is driven by service to others. I’m always looking for experiences that will nurture my growth, make me bigger, stronger, wiser, kinder, so I can be of better service to others. And yes, trusting in a Divine source is such a difficult concept for me. Receiving energy from the Divine in order to fuel my capacity for giving? Is that possible?

Tina’s answer was to give me what she called ‘The Final Test of Faith’.

“Its message is : “I have no limits. I let go of those I have set for myself.” When you take time ( not wait for time… but claim your time) to go inside and connect with your heart, you will find all the knowledge you may have been seeking outside. This message calls on you to trust, to let go of the limitations your mind may have conjured up for yourself, others or life and let yourself experience the joy of the space in your sacred heart.
This is all about feminine leadership. This is power combined with love, rather than force. There may be some old, old resentments related to what power is or fear of fully embodying your power, thereby holding you back from fully shining… yet, when you release the fears or doubts related to this, and the desire to control, you discover hope where there may seem to have been none… bringing that inspiration to others as well.”

I know that this is possible, in theory. I have a work colleague who is a Muslim. Above everything else (wife, mother, sister, friend) she is a Muslim. And the light of Allah shines upon her face. She embodies her faith, and she glows. She calls me her “very good friend” but I think she is being too kind and generous. She is delighted when I use the Muslim greetings when I meet her, that I respect her faith, that I “see” her. We have known each other for three years, and she says that I have made her bolder, made her question some of the cultural (not religious) practices which she has felt bound to and limited by. She says her family and friends talk about how much more confidence she has, and how assertive she is becoming. She has shown me the love and care that can spring from deep personal faith.

Moses struggled with the existence of a God. He thought he was not worthy. I am not an atheist. I have had too many mystical experiences to deny the existence of spirit. But I do struggle with feeling worthy of receiving. So this is my challenge, and where to start? These are the words that sing to me…

An open, trusting heart is a refined tool of perception. Allowing yourself to ‘not know’ opens the door of the mind to a deeper understanding of the universe. Empowerment comes from self-acceptance, integrity, and commitment to your evolution. Self-empowerment is not to be found outside oneself. Anything outside that brings you empowerment also has a divine foundation within you. If you feel a need for the approval of others, look to self-empowerment. When you feel effectively engaged, doing what gives you joy, your energy naturally expands to include more of who you are, and magic flows synchronistically into your life. 
Claim your alignment with the highest wisdom. Call forth divine action in all that you do! Align your own will with divine will and your Essence Self. Be transparent, innocently allowing magic to come through you rather than needing to create it. Open to heart-knowing and limitless possibilties. A wise magician is spontaneous and transparent, allowing magic to come in rather than trying to control it or make it happen. A magician dances the dance of love through offering gifts of freedom to others. This is real magic. Freed from the need to use power to manipulate or control, a magician uses wisdom to manifest liberation and love. Utilize the elements you have chosen for exploration in your life – your gifts, talents, abilities, motivations, circumstances, and the other characters in your play. Orchestrate the most interesting and growth-engendering story line from this combination of possibilities. Understand that you are the player and the played in the melody in your life.
In this life-time you are being asked to release and surrender. Surrender is the opposite of giving up. It is freeing yourself from the desire to be in control, letting go of how you think things should be. Surrender is freedom. You are being invited to release yourself from the bondage of preconceived action, to let everything be all right as it is, so that you can live a more inspired life in the moment! You are being asked to take action in the process of surrender and release. You are requested to die a symbolic death, to surrender your limiting beliefs. Symbolic death unveils the self by cutting away the outgrown parts of yourself that no longer serve you. In such death, ego structures fall away to reveal the garden of the true self.
Look for new ways of being, new people, new ideas, and new directions that will move into the vacuum created through surrender and release. Surrender enlivens and empowers you to experience more of life’s fullness. Holding on to past patterns and grievances only limits the possibilities. Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Let go. Surrender whatever limits you. Face whatever you are resisting. In the experience of any loss, it is never too late to complete. Through your willingness to walk in the dark forest, insights and revelations will naturally emerge. Let go and be. It represents the death of outgrown parts of the small self, which can be used as fodder or fuel for the regeneration into a more expanded self.
The energy that is generated from the transformation of these parts creates a refinement of your spirit. Also, by burning off the dross of the small self, a vacuum is created, drawing new people, ideas, and directions into your life. In the past, an old behaviour or belief system may have created a way for you to temporarily feel better about yourself by supporting your ego structure. As that ego structure is burned off, you create a pathway for Spirit to fully satisfy the same needs. Accept the truth of your present situation. Through accepting what is, you are free to go forward. Change and growth become easier and more natural. Each experience in this enlivened state of surrender allows for more joy. You, like the symbol of the evergreen tree, are alive and green amidst the process of apparent death and transformation of winter. Green creates a feeling of balance and restful calm. It is restorative and healing, grounding, and centering. In the shadows you may think you are serving yourself through this illusion of safety and security. Yet if you maintain distance from the world of possibilities outside your shell, your new horizons are kept at a distance. Take a risk, and reveal all that you are! Beyond the confines of definitions and self-concepts and the security of everyday patterns, the excitement of unknown possibilities beckons.
Examine how protective limitations affect your natural growth. Such issues are reflected in phrases like, “My world works just the way it is”; “I can’t do that”; “I’m just fine the way I am”; or “I feel too inadequate.” The safe wall that is intended to create safety and security also builds a barrier that limits Spirit from creating new possibilities in your life. One way to access the transformation offered in the shadows is to realize that the seeds – your dreams, desires, and destiny – lie waiting within you to be awakened. In accepting that you are the fertile ground, you feel the authentic safety and security within, and the outside world becomes ripe with new possibilities. “I am the flint and tinder of the sacred fire.” In the Great Mystery, flint and tinder represent the instinctive combustion that initiates movement in the physical body toward union with Spirit. When flint and tinder are brought together, the spark of divinity awakens and ignites the fire of your essence. Shed the skin of your past and step into the fires of alchemical transmutation. In this, rebirth is revealed. This desire is an innate response encoded in the depths of your being. 
Learn to use the innate intelligence of the body. In this culture you may have become separated from this wisdom. It works like this: when you suppress and ignore your issues, your body receives and retains the unconscious metaphors of that which is ignored. This may be expressed through physical symptoms that bring your unconscious issues to conscious awareness.  When this happens, work toward a more conscious relatonship with your body – and work with the physical metaphors in order to heal yourself on all levels. The body has a specific kind of consciousness through which messages are clearly delivered. In fact, the body itself is a living metaphor that mirrors your mind, emotions and spirit. However, the body also remembers all it has experienced, and consequently holds the consciousness of the past within it, including past wounds and traumas. In healing these, remember the innocence of your body. Treat it with love and respect. Open yourself to be aware of its messages and metaphors rather than storing them. Be willing to look at the positive intent beneath any symptoms or physical process your body is using to communicate.
Explore whatever it may be asking you to see. In this alignment process, you can use images or energies that come to you in meditation or dreams. Journey through your body to catalyze and explore any sensations, colors, shapes, or images. In these times we have a profound opportunity to transcend both our physical and our spiritual genetics. The body’s integration provides an unparalleled opportunity for personal evolution. Learn to expand and utilize your senses to access your body’s wisdom and vitality. Don’t ‘think’ about it; simply allow your body to sense intuitively the solutions necessary for change and growth. Mystical alignment, self-acceptance, technician of the sacred, direct connection with the Source. Combine your feelings and intellect to transmute matter into mystical consciousness. Standing in simple self-acceptance, craft a light body from the column of light in your spine. Open your lotus to the world. You are the gift. Accept yourself unconditionally. Freed from the need for outside confirmation, stand open to your full mystical power.  
Adapted from


The journey of a thousand miles begins beneath one’s feet. Lao Tzu 


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6 Comments on “the divine”

  1. Michelle Says:

    Since your son loves story and enjoys his scripture classes have you ever heard of Godly Play? It might be something he’d enjoy. If you are interested in mysticism and because you love nature you might enjoy exploring Hildegard de Bingen – have you heard of her before? Thank you for your sharing in this post.


    • tree girl Says:

      Hi Michelle

      Thank you for your comment.

      I haven’t heard of Godly Play. I’ll look it up. Thank you for the recommendation.

      Oh yes! I love Hildegard von Bingen. A very talented woman – remarkable, a true inspiration.


  2. Alania Starhawk Says:

    How beautiful it is to see you FLY FREE in your organic expression of Truth!! I can see that you are going through this contemplative process within…and simply taking us along for the ride!! That’s wonderful!!! You too…are a fabulous ‘yarner’!! And so i look forward to many more tales of Life and Love from you!! Thank YOU Tree Girl!! ♥


    • tree girl Says:

      Warami (good to see you) Alania

      Thank you for your beautiful and light-filled message.

      Yanu (bye, I go now)

      Tree Girl


      • Alania Starhawk Says:

        Tree Girl….I LOVE that you open new doors of awareness for us!! I do not yet know of this language you share….but I’m excited to learn more!! Please continue to inspire us!!! You are beautiful!!


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